Something has ruined 3 years of my life. Instead of evolving into a young women mentally and socially I was stuck in this phase of a weird mind thing that stopped me from thinking straight I think and kept going til today 13-16. I am scared of it and still dont understand it but has escaped it and is on the road to being the one in shouldve been again because I switched schools. Like I havent even told this to myself. My whole school relationships was build up upon the person I was when I did this weird mind thing. I was now that thing and wouldnt escape it even though I was hurting. I was scared because the world I build up would come down crashing on me and I thought I wasn’t prepared for that so I just continued to hurt. The weird thing these people ”friends” didnt know anything about the truth about what was going on inside my head. I escaped it kind of now but realized now also thar I am ready for that world to come down crashing on me. I maybe can tell the detailed story but.

So, I have somethings I need to get off my chest. I am in my early 40's and I am just working on a better me. I have warrants in 2 states from 20 years ago and because of these warrants and the fact that I am still terrified of them I have never been able to live a good life. I have worked crappy jobs, because I couldn't do anything that required a background check. I am very intelligent and have contributed to many things but not that lasted. The stupid thing is none if them were things I did to harm anyone. It was check fraud and the reason I did it was to make people like me. I wrote bad checks to give people what they asked for so they would stay my friend. Do I know better now...YES. But now 20 years later I have never again committed any crime since! I am a pta mom and active in my community and church. No one in my life knows about that part of my past. I am so scared people will find out. But I am too scared to face it. I have a plan to right this. I needed to get it out.

I dont know how to go back to normal life and be myself.

Hello where does the är-edmissoons go ???

I am desperately in love with a man who is not my husband. Neither man knows the truth.

I drank too much wine at a beach club and vomited next to my lounge chair. I barely remember making my way back to the hotel. I'm so embarrassed.

A few years ago, I was close friends with two people. A girl and a boy. We would also stay by each other every recess and lunch until I moved away to a different town far away. 2 years later, I still have not had contact with my two friends then I found the boy's social media account. I felt a sudden wave of excitement when both of us started chatting, it was fun and he seemed like the same friend I had. Though, during one Livestream I was watching that he was doing with his other friend. His other friend had asked who I was and I was quietly waiting for him to say like a friend or at least an old classmate. "Oh, just this cringy girl who used to follow me around" This was what made me snap. I froe while hearing his friend mocking my comment asking what they were doing. "Just go away, you're really cringy" Another thing he said before I got off social media and blocked him. I started crying really hard, his words did hit me hard because I had thought we were friends.

I'm not so perfect as my wife thinks...