i have a boyfriend that i love but i think i want a relationship with a girl more than anything. im bi but as i get older i like men less and less and i think i cant fully be happy in a relationship with one. we've been together 9 months now but i cant help but have that in the back of my mind. ive repressed the part of me that likes women bc my mother is homophobic.

i think about dying to help me sleep at night, it's always been comforting to me that i could end it and get out of any situation in my life that is too hard to cope with.

I was the one who stole my housemate’s adderall, MANY times, from her room. And I did it again even after I promised myself I wouldn’t, by picking the lock box she kept it in. I don’t really regret it, and honestly it was worth it for the high. I still feel guilty about it, but I know damn well I will never admit this to her. A part of me feels like she deserves it a little.

I just sent an e-admit about stealing my housemates adderall. But I also wanted to add that I’ve lied my way around the situation, letting another housemate believe she made the story of stolen adderall all up. I also lied to everyone’s faces by playing completely dumb about it all (I should really be an actor tbh). I think I feel more bad about the lying than the stealing.

My country went into a what the state called a -social lockdown-. I was already lonely and now I can't meet the few friends I have. There is no workethic left in my body and my results are dropping rappidly. I'm considering finding a prostitute just to feel a human connection. My mental health has been non existant for months, but there is still 7 months wait time before a psychologist may have the time to speak with me. If you feel alone in theese times, remember that atleast I want to join your company. I'm just lonely.

when I was 13 I ran away from my house to a 17 almost 18yr olds house where I hid from the cops. I don't know why I did this, I had a good home and decent family. yes we fought all the time but I still had both parents and was/am luckier than most. I remember sitting in class one time and a memory of me getting sexually abused came to me. This memory must have been oppressed for so long that when it hit me I wanted to die. Right there in that class at 13. I told my mom and, we didn't have the best relationship but I felt I could confide in her. But I was wrong she said to me " stop acting like a victim." and "there is a difference between raped and molested. I stared getting heavily into drugs after this. Im not saying its her fault whatsoever but it still hurt. just wanted to let that out.

Even though I promised myself I would not, I fell deep in love with a coworker. I opened up to him like I have never even did with actual boyfriends. The bad part is I left the job and he started to ghost me, now I am alone with a broken heart.

no idea why i want to tell this to some randoms online! lol. everytime something big happens in my life that changes me as a person i just disappear. i delete all my accounts of every social media i have, without telling anyone, and without saying goodbye to the online friends i made along the years. i have done this at least 2 times, and today i am considering doing again. i know it's bad etc etc but i don't really? care? they won't miss me that much anyways. maybe they'll be worried in the beginning, but theyll forget me in like, 3 months probably. it's not the end of the world. i have no idea why i do this, but i do <3 it's not something i plan on doing when i accidentally befriend someone, but when i change, i CHANGE, and i cant have anyone holding me back — also, not saying goodbye and just leaving is much easier than simply explaining to them. if i could do this in real life i would, with no doubt.