I feel like I can't give enough effort in relationships. I can barely drag myself out of bed in the morning, eat, and drink, so I don't know how to also remember to message my long distance partner. I have been a bad partner in many ways, but I sometimes feel so stifled by the monogamy he wants to role play with me. Why can't he date someone else if he needs attention and company I can't give him? I feel like I'm responsible for everyone else's wellbeing, when I can't even take care of my own. I have friends who are going through grief and horrible things, but I fell guilt devoting my time to them, when my partner gets so little of it. He deserves to find somebody else, but I want him in my life still. I wish there was a way he would just date someone else or leave me and ask to be friends still. I can't handle all this pressure from every direction. He and I want different things, and yet in our unique way, I love him and he loves me. I don't know what there is left to do.

I can't do this anymore. Nobody understands me. Nobody understands how hard it is to resist whoever's screaming in my head at me to murder everyone around me then kill myself. I can't talk to anybody about it, either. They'd think I was a lunatic, just like everybody else. Not even my own family loves me. Maybe I should just kill myself. I just want somebody to listen. Please.

I was being psychologically bullied and harassed by a kid down the hall at my boarding school. He would steal my things, push me around in the halls, and tell me to kill myself. I finally broke today and went into his room when he was out and poured water all over his Xbox, then dried it up to get rid of the evidence. A lot of it got into the innards, so it’s likely broken. It was wrong and sinful (wrath) but he needed to get what he deserved after all this time.

I'm so tired of being used. I tell them what I know they want to hear and do what I know they want. I hate it while its happening. I hate it afterwards. Afterwards I feel so empty. Yet, I keep coming when they call. I make myself available to them. I respond quickly. All just to avoid the far worse feeling, the emptiness that would come if they stopped using me. They may not care, but they message. They comment. They flatter, fawn and touch. And that feels like something, even if just in lust.

I hate my friend's friend. They've never really fit into my and my friend's group of friends. They always try to butt in, even when it's not their place. It got to the point where one of my other friends in my group of friends would refuse to see this person because they always disagree on stuff. And my friends in my group are usually pretty open minded, discussing politics, differing viewpoints, etc. But this person is just too annoying. And the worst thing about them is that they're lgbt, and they use their identity as a -get out of jail- free card for their wrongdoings. As if being lgbt makes you automatically in the right, tch. Newsflash, people within the lgbt community even discriminate against each other. So they purport to be -non binary-, but they act more like it's a -cool- and -so unique- thing than an actual, serious identity. They're always changing their names, using ridiculous pronouns, etc. They change their name every day. I wish my friend stopped talking to them. >:-(

Back then, I am used to being left out. I was okay with it. However, I still have friends but I have no one to call my best friend for life. I didn't feel lonely. But to tell you right now, these is the first time that ever happened to me like I feel so left out and lonely because each of my friends have their own circle of friends now. I have my family and I am grateful to them but it is different when you have someone to treat as your best friend or as your buddy to ask if you're feeling okay out of nowhere. However, I think that it is my fault because I hardly reach out to someone. I think I have depression. I feel sad for no reason and its like my energy is so low. I loss interest in doing what I love. I am always thinking about how to get a job or have a source of income. Right now, socializing is so hard, like reaching out to your friends is difficult. I have no confidence in myself and currently losing my self- esteem. What do you suggest me to do?

I don't know why i love my boyfriend but still after 5 years of relationship i keep searching for other men even if i don't do anything in the end. For example a few days ago i met this guy and he wrote me and i replied but it was a normal conversation even if i was happy he was writing to me, and just only for that i feel guilty. Then he met some friends of mine yesterday and I'm afraid they told him that i'm in a relationship since he hasn't replied even if saw my last message. I dont know why i care and why he stopped answering since we had a normal conversation. But i dont know why i feel good with my boyfriend but still i'm attracted to others. Any advice?

-I have this stationary cardio bike and every time I use it, after a while my dick & balls fall asleep. Maybe I'm sitting wrong, or is the saddle not on the best height/stand. You know when your arm falls asleep and it gets all tingly? That feeling, but then in my dick, feels really good.-